What do i do?

[MattMVS7]

I don't have knowledge or experience in any physical musical art, but apparently I do have some knowledge and experience that I'm unaware of when it comes to making songs mentally in my head--as these songs I've truthfully judged to be very powerful and unique. But these songs are so overwhelmingly powerful to me that this desire of wanting them made is overbearing and I want them perfected from my mind out onto the internet and also for their power to be recognized by others online.


But I am a person who does not enjoy hardly anything (and that even includes the forms of musical art such as making music in FL Studio, singing, playing instruments, etc). But I did do a general sketch of these songs by singing them the best I could into a mic, even though I have no knowledge or experience in singing. And I did actually feel good when singing them just because I was actually getting the music out of my mind (though I do not enjoy singing by itself and would not pursue a career in singing--the singing was just a means of getting the music out of my mind). I felt good because I was making the music and was going to share it online with a few others. After which, I uploaded them onto SoundCloud and shared them with a few people online.

These are my songs:

http://soundcloud.com/mattmvs7

(NOTE: I find the love song in my list to be the most powerful).

But some thought the songs were silly and did not portray the feels I intended (and I would have to sort of agree because it was flawed singing and all and I imitated instrument sounds with singing). And the slightest of flaws can throw off the music and portray a completely different feel for another person listening to it. And although I can hear the songs perfectly for what they are when I listen to them (because I have the actual perfect songs themselves in my mind as a reference), I really feel that the power of my music is not yet recognized, and obviously must be physically perfected in order for its power to be revealed.


But just like with anything else, in order to get something perfected, you have to spend years worth of gaining knowledge and experience, and FL Studio is no exception. Learning and gaining experience absolutely requires passion, which I do not have when it comes to physically perfecting my music. I tried learning and experimenting with FL Studio, but I truly do not enjoy it and is frustrating to me.


There are many forms of musical arts such as singing, dancing, etc. And there is also another form of musical art which is making songs in your head (something I truly enjoy as it makes direct use of my feelings and channels whatever intense feeling I have and makes it into a song--unlike doing something physically tedius like FL Studio). But it's unfortunate that I have to pursue another form of musical art I don't enjoy doing just to get these songs perfected into the world.

[Jerome]

Yes unfortunately in life, if you want to achieve something, it normally requires hard work. No work, no reward.

[MattMVS7]

I understand, but there is no doubt a very powerful emotional mental musical talent within me to create these songs (the way I strongly feel about music and how powerful the songs become). It is true that anyone can make music in their heads, but its how powerful the songs are and how strongly you feel about music that makes this a mental talent.


This is a list of songs I made:


http://soundcloud.com/mattmvs7


(NOTE: the love song listed there I think is my most powerful)


But now the question remains of how to awaken that talent into a physical form. Learning and actually physically making the music, as opposed to making the music in my head are completely different things and are completely different emotional experiences. Learning (reading, watching videos online, etc.) and playing instruments or producing the music in FL Studio makes use of a completely different state of mind (in this state I am not enjoying these things). But making music in my head makes use of my personal being and there is no frustration or lack of enjoyment.


Now the question remains of how to bring together two completely different actions/mind states as one so that when I am learning or physically making the music, the state of mind used for making music in my head will be used for learning/physically making the music.

[CRAZY-HORSE]

perseverance,persistance,fortitude and lots of self belief will get you half way there...the rest is luck(being in the right place at the right time)

[Jerome]

You either take the time to learn how to produce the music you want to create or forget about ever producing it. There are no shortcuts.